I woke at 5:30 to go work out but was hit by a wave of dread and despair. Probably PMS though that doesn't help me shake it off. I ended up not going to the gym. Later in the day, I ate a very high calorie meal which satisfied me, and now I'm just left with the lethargy, left leg pain and twitching and a sense of hopelessness that I'll never be able to fully function again.
Yeah. Really conducive to writing.
I did get the NY Times puzzle really fast today, and I bought some M&Ms. Any port in a storm.
May 5, 2009
Just Here
I'm just here. Not writing. Exercising is hard, and makes my body hurt. Since I came up with the brilliant theory that I will hurt with or without exercise, I'm going with the "with"...
Lots of hot flashes at night, interrupting sleep.
Am reading Nicholas Sparks for tips on the craft of just getting on with the story, without all the business.
I expect that my period will start soon, and this is the pre-game show. When I am exercising, I feel strong and jockish... but things quickly deteriorate when I contemplate where my life has ended up.
I'm so far from home. So far from where I thought I'd be, or even imagined where I might be. So very far.
Lots of hot flashes at night, interrupting sleep.
Am reading Nicholas Sparks for tips on the craft of just getting on with the story, without all the business.
I expect that my period will start soon, and this is the pre-game show. When I am exercising, I feel strong and jockish... but things quickly deteriorate when I contemplate where my life has ended up.
I'm so far from home. So far from where I thought I'd be, or even imagined where I might be. So very far.
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